May 2013
1 post
April 2013
12 posts
Somebody once told me that the reason she kept it a secret from me was so that I would be happy.
As noble as that sounds, it’s honestly a bunch of crap when the secret takes things in a whole different direction.
Look at where it has taken us now.
Family - when I was younger, Family stood for “Father and mother, I love you”.
I used to be so envious of other families, particular my friends’ families. I know each family would have their own issues, no doubt about it. However, it’s more of the bond that the family shares with one another. To be able to reach out to one another without feeling the fear of being pushed...
Roses are red, violets are blue.
Sugar is sweet, and so are you.
Life is full of descriptions. Essentially, without the adjectives added to paint the picture, you would be left with an empty canvas.
Blogging soothes the soul.
I forgot how much blogging actually calms me down. I used to blog about stuff every day, it was almost like a whole new religion.
Although, another reason of blogging is not, however, the idea of writing things out for the whole world to see how pathetic I am - but instead to articulate expressions for people to read and relate to - I am aware that I am not the only human being to write the...
When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.
Oscar Wilde wrote that the basis of optimism is sheer terror.
Some may interpret that quote as the more you are fearful of things, the more optimism you would become. Some may interpret that as being strong-minded person. On the other hand, it could possibly be interpreted as a way of just thinking in a different perspective. Although, some may say that it’s a way of avoiding your problems...
Taking a toll
I will admit that things have not been significantly easy for me. I have been feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted for the past few months that I think it had already started to affect the most part of my physical being too. Even sharing about the problems to others becomes another problem on its own - or at least that is the case for me.
Growing up was not easy for me but it had to be done...
“I do not pray for a lighter load, but for a stronger back.”
– Phillips Brooks (via thatkindofwoman)
Keith Scott: I’m not gonna leave you here son. I’m not gonna do that and i’ll tell you why. Cause I’ve been there. I’ve bought the gun, and i planned on using it ok. I’ve been there. And I wanna tell you something, It gets better.
Jimmy Edwards: Not this, it can’t.
Keith Scott: It does Jimmy. That pain in your stomach, that pain in your heart, it goes...
I was recently told that the reason why they do not have to worry about me or I was in the least of their worries is because I very well know how to take care of myself.
On the other hand, there was a moment where another person called me to just simply ask how I was doing after our earlier conversation. A feeling just rushed to mind.
It was a feeling that felt so out of this world. Something...
Sometimes at night I suddenly become aware of all the things I’m missing out on right now, and all the people who I’m not close to anymore, and all of the good times that will never happen again, and all the people who meant the world to me who have forgotten about me forever, and I get this awful feeling that’s kind of like a mix between loneliness and nostalgia.
March 2013
4 posts
February 2013
10 posts
“…I was never the brightest. I was supposed to be the guiding star to help the...”
– Polaris (via aureliaxaurita)
January 2013
15 posts
“It’s taboo to admit that you’re lonely. You can make jokes about it, of course....”
– You’re Not Making The Most Of Your 20s by Ryan O’Connell (via raindropsonredroses)
Interviewer: Give us your best tip for overcoming depression.
Stephen Fry: To regard it as being like the weather. It's not your responsibility that it's raining, but it is real when it rains, and the fact that it's raining does not mean that the rain is never going to stop. The only thing to do is to believe that, one day, it won't be raining and accept it so you can find a mental umbrella to shield yourself from the worst. The sun will eventually come up.
“Stand naked in front of a mirror for a long time, under unflattering light if...”
– Chelsea Fagan, How To Fall In Love With Yourself (via journeytogold)
A cleanse - that’s what I need.
A transformational change - that’s what I need.
A self-intervention - that’s what I need.
That’s what I’m going to try to do.
December 2012
3 posts
The year 2012 is coming to an end. To have learned so many things - to have changed my mind so many times.
To have learned the things I am definitely capable of doing.
Some extraordinary, some devastating. I have grown to love, at the same time have grown to hate. Grown to forgive, meanwhile grown to not forget.
I have friends who gave me the support without questioning or doubting me. And...
“When you’re young – when I was young – you want your emotions to be like the...”
– Julian Barnes | The Sense of an Ending
November 2012
14 posts
“She lives the poetry she cannot write.”
– Oscar Wilde
awkward: private moments, public places →
amandashiew:
So I’m sitting in the fast food joint on campus, trying to write my research paper about the portrayal of women in The Faerie Queene by Ed Spenser. It’s loud, so of course I’m tuning out with music.
And a song with a very personal meaning to me just started playing on Pandora, and I started…
